I am a trusting person.
Some say to a fault, but that’s just how I was wired. I always give people the benefit of the doubt, I always take people at their word (at least until they prove otherwise), I always believe that people want to do good even though, most of the time, they are incapable of accomplishing that task on their own.
Is that naive of me? Probably, but this is how God wired me, that is how God made me.
Yet, even in that truth I have to admit that as a sinful human being I have drastically distorted that God-given ability to trust and love all people no matter who they are into something it was never meant to be.
And that is the reason I am writing this post.
I am so willing to trust others that I take their opinions towards me and my abilities to heart and I live my life according to how they think I should live it.
“You really shouldn’t be so outspoken.” – So I learn to shut up.
“You really shouldn’t wear contacts.” – So I put my glasses back on.
but the one I’m the most ashamed about…
“You really shouldn’t preach that way.” – So I learn the methods of popular preachers and model them, because I know that they will get the response I want.
And that is the crux of the whole issue for me. I so desperately want the approval of the people around me I will inherently do whatever I can to gain their approval and applause.
Hello, my name is Larry Vinson and my idol is self-glorification.
It’s taken me awhile, but I am so glad I have labeled this major sin in my life. For years I have lived a life that has been nothing but doing what others want so they can turn to me and tell me what a great job I have done pleasing them.
It’s time to change.
The truth is that the only praise I should ever desire in my life is not my own, not from those around me, but from God. The only person that should be dictating my life is the Holy Spirit living within me. I should be living my life in pursuit of His approval and no one else’s.
Does that mean I won’t listen to those who have wise words for me?
No. I will always seek wisdom from other people, but every piece of advice I garner will be matched up with Scripture and brought to God for approval.
That’s what I’ve been missing. A life that is centered around what God deems worthy and nothing else.
I’m starting to think that this is not my problem alone. I think we all go through this. From the high school student who dresses like celebrities because they know others will approve to the adult who doesn’t speak up when they see something wrong because it’s not the “proper” thing to do.
Why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we allow our culture to tell us what the “perfect” human looks like?
Truth is, there is only one perfect human and we should be looking to Him for what we should be doing.
My challenge is to do what John the Baptist did in John 3 when faced with peer pressure on changing how he did things…
“He must increase, I must decrease.”
John knew that he was doing the right thing by allowing Christ to take over his ministry and he didn’t care what other people thought. John lived a life of doing what God wanted him to do no matter the cost. I need to learn from that.
It’s time for me to be less about me, to be less about pursuing self-glorification, and to be more about Christ and the glorification of His name.
Peace, Love, and Soul